[ T E N things you want to say to T E N different people. ]


[ one. ] I LOVE YOU. You're the most important person in the world to me. You know that! You're smart, talented, beautiful... Aaaah, I can't even begin to explain how much you mean to me... but I guess you know from that note I sent you that no words can explain it. Love you forever, babe <3

[ two. ] You are so amazing. Sooo many good times together! Ikea adventures, rugby, PICKLES AND BABY MUM-MUMS, photo shoots in pretty dresses, booty-shaking lessons, piercing your cartilage, rapping the Hepatitis Song, messing around in French class, "oooh, who're you textingggg~?"... let's keep 'em coming! I'm so glad I can trust you with practically everything that happens, and I'm glad you never judge. Love ya, girl! GOTTA GET 'EM TITTIES <3

[ three. ] WE'RE THO THTUPID. Godddd, where would I be without you? STEREOFOAM LIVES. Actually, no. It's dead. Whoops, my baaaddddd. But, anyways, you make bio and sciences humaines bearable. "Hey, Ruthless and Stephaneely!""HEY JEFFLESS.". Great times jammin' in the music room. SLAPPIN' DA BASSSSS~ You rock my world, girl. You and your odd screamo music. But we totally have a blast struttin' our stuff like runway models through the halls at school. KEEP IT REAL LIKE A WAGON WHEEL. That's how we roll BD

[ four. ] BIIIIITCH. I cannot believe we haven't talked in so long. And then the other day you were all "heyyyyy~" and we started talking again like nothing ever happened! Well... nothing did happen, we just stopped talking for whatever reason... but you're still as awesome as ever! Hahaha, remember those late nights watching South Park and waiting for a damn Jimbo-and-Ned episode to come on? AND THE SLASH DOODLES. Oh myyyy~ Good times, good times. When I get my 'N', I'm coming to see you... haha... I said 'cumming'...

[ five. ] You were the first person I can actually say I loved and I'd do anything for. It could've been just a silly, confused crush, but I still loved you and I would've done anything for you. It sickens me to think of you that way anymore. I don't know what happened between us, but, quite frankly, I don't want to know, nor do I care. But whatever happened to us hanging and being close and watching the stars and having movie nights and being just plain crazy kids? Suddenly one day you don't want to talk to me anymore? You've changed. You're everything you used to hate. I don't want anything to do with you, because I want to remember you as the way you were when we were the best of friends.

[ six. ] You are the best friend that I always say I wish I had and forget I do! Dammit, why do you live so far away? It still amazes me that we've been besties since kindergarten and we're still so close. Remember all those lame first crushes? "OH, HEY, I GOT A BRA." "OH, SWEET, ME TOO, I'M A DOUBLE-A" "ME TOOOOO!" <-- grade 5, people, I was flat as fuck. And we're still so close (yet so far...). But I still love talking to you, and hanging out with you when you come to visit in the summer. I trust you with my life, and I'd take a bullet for you, girl. BFFs for life, ok? <3

[ seven ] Is it bad that we used to be so called 'besties' and now you annoy the hell outta me? You have a girlfriend, buddy, one of my best friends. I don't think she'd appreciate some of the things you say about my boobs, even though I know you're only joking. But still... I just want to be left alone. If you poke me and want to talk with me, start the damn conversation! I don't wanna have to be the one talking when you're the one that says 'hey' in the first place...
Maybe I just wasn't cut out to have a boy best friend... oh well.

[ eight ] Ok... even though you piss the living hell out of me in the mornings, and you have a tantrum every day of your damn life, I've still gotta say you're an amazing person. I'll always remember the good times, like when we built forts in the living room, invaded the co-op with water guns, saved baby birds, danced really horribly in the living room, mended each-others' boo-boos... I couldn't ask for a better little sister! (well... that could be argued...)

[ nine ] "HEYYY, IS THAT YOUR LITTLE BROTHER?"
"What? No... we hardly even look alike!"
"Hahaha, Stephaaaaa, they think I'm your brother..."
Even though we just met this year, you're such a super awesome person. You're adorable and cuddly and tiny and just plain sweet. And funny. Glad to call you my 'little brother'! AWW SHEEEEEET rofl <3

[ ten ] I really hate you. I never said I'd hate a family member, but I don't even count you as family. You bitch about me living far away, when you're the one who decided to move to Calgary. And just because I didn't have a boyfriend in grade 8 doesn't make me a fag. I'm embarrassed to call you my cousin.

[ N I N E things about yourself: ]


[ I. ] I can act like a bitch. That's that. I strut my stuff like you wouldn't believe. And I've got attitude. But when you really get to know me, you can get past that hard exterior... it's actually not hard to do. But to get to the soft, gooey center... that's hard...

[ II. ] I LOVE WRITING LOVE LETTERS. Ok? Ok.

[ III. ] And, on the topic of love letters, I'm really, really romantic... I just don't show it, because I don't wanna be called a softie or anything. And I hate fitting into gender stereotypes.

[ IV. ] The one thing that really bugs me when I'm upset is when people come up and ask "Are you mad at meeeee?"... No, I most likely wasn't mad at you before, but saying that has made me angry >:I

[ V. ] I am a fucking nutcase. Just give me some sugar and I'll be bouncing off the walls in no time c:

[ VI. ] I'm asexual, but ever since I met this certain person, I've been questioning that... I still don't want anything, but I would gladly do anything sexual for them in a heartbeat. <3
OH AND I GOT HORNY FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER THE OTHER DAY. IT WAS SO EXCITING FOR ME. BUT ODD, BECAUSE I STILL DIDN'T WANT ANYTHING. I WAS JUST HORNY. MAYBE I'M NOT ASEXUAL...?

[ VII. ] When I fall in love, I fall deep. I can't think of anyone I've ever loved that I wasn't completely devoted to. Including my family and friends. I'm extremely loyal, and I like to imagine myself with my current partner for the rest of my life <3

[ VIII. ] I love singing. So much. But I don't like singing in front of people, only in choir. My sister's the only one that I'll freely sing out loud to.

[ IX. ] This distance makes me cry...


[ E I G H T ways to win your heart: ]


[ uno. ] Be there for me when I'm crying. You don't even necessarily need to tell me not to cry, just be there. Hug me and comfort me and I'll love you forever.

[ dos. ] Be sweet and caring. Showering me with compliments is good, hahaha, but I still get pissed off and go "noooo, it's not trueeee" while on the inside I'm all "bawww, so sweeeet C':"

[ tres. ] Kiss me.
Just kiss me. It shows me you care.

[ quatro. ] Don't be afraid to show your true colours around me. If you know how to have a good time, prove it! I love being crazy and wild, and I want to be with someone who's comfortable not only being around someone like that, but being like that themselves.

[ cinco. ] Don't listen to what anyone has to say about you. Know that I love you just the way you are, and even if I bitch about your flaws, I most likely find them adorable <3

[ seis. ] Be a smarty-pants sometimes, so I can tease you.

[ siete. ] Don't be afraid to dance.

[ ocho. ] Play with my hair and whisper things in my ear.
So. Cute.


[ S E V E N things that cross your mind a lot: ]

[ 1. ] BAWWW I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH...

[ 2. ] Aww, damn, my thighs are HUGE. Gross.

[ 3. ] I need to shave.

[ 4. ] Hmmmm, I should probably eat some time today... I always forget, dammit...

[ 5. ] Schoolschoolschoolstressschoolschoolschool...

[ 6. ] I need to fix this damn foot of mine... >:I

[ 7. ] I love you~ <3 <-- daydream mode right there.


[ S I X things you couldn't live without: ]


[ S i x . ] My buddies

[ F i v e . ] Music... I would actually implode.

[ F o u r. ] My phone

[ T h r e e. ] Pencil and Paper

[ T w o. ] My family

[ O n e. ] You know who you areeee~


[ F I V E turn OFFS: ]


[ Ayy. ] "Oh, hey, let's kiss!" <-- NO. Kisses should be spontaneous, dammit. :I

[ Bee. ] Guys that are hot and know that they are, so they have a huuuuuge ego.

[ Cee. ] Bad hygiene... akldfj;a don't even get me started... ew.

[ Dee. ] People that are waaayyyy too touchy... I know I'm a really physical person, but if I'm not attracted to you, keep your mitts off.

[ Eef. ] Insults... unless they're teasing insults, then I'll just fake-cry and make you feel bad, heeheehee~


[ F O U R turn ONS: ]


[ up. ] GAY BOYS. asklf -melts-

[ down. ] Skinniness... slender people just seem so awkward and adorable |D

[ around. ] The ability to be absolutely sweet and do super cute, corny things

[ town. ] UNIFORMS. AAAAH. <3


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[ T W O things you want to do before you die: ]


[ won. ] Find my soul mate and have one offspring with them. Yes, just one.

[ to. ] Have a great life; make enough money to get by and enjoy myself.


[ O N E confession: ]

If you were here right now, I would kiss you.
I really miss you ;___; <33